Jessie is safe..but bye bye pussycat

[Kristen Bitting]

Thank GOD Jessie won that POV.
I wanted him to win so badly because he did not deserve to leave because of me and my big mouth. I told the truth to Enzo to make it easier for him to understand my decision..and because I had faith in Amy.
She has done everything I asked her to do all season..no questions asked.
I knew she was vacillating as he always does but when she told me she had already voted I didnt think she could change it. Most games I have been in dont allow it so I figured he was gone and deserved the truth. Besides a little while ago Jessie and I discussed our secret alliance being outed at some point and he said " it is almost at the point that it doesnt matter anymore "
We were both getting a bit complacent because it has been pretty clear sailing...in fact we were even saying it was almost too easy and we were getting bored...HA... Wake up call !!!!

I stayed up until 5 AM reading IMs and DRS and I had confidence in my answers . Jessie and I discussed our answers and were both certain of 2-7 but for 1 and 8 we were only close, not certain so we split the difference so one of us would get it.

I would have been in another pickle if I had won . Enzo told me to throw it...since I was safe. The trouble is I couldnt throw it because I needed to be certain Jessie stayed. I was just dumb and didnt read the part about PMing it. Not the first comp I have lost for being in too much of a hurry to read instructions..probably wont be the last.

Anyway all is well that ends well..Jessie was attacked for no reason this week and he deserved the right to get his own revenge.
Dont get me wrong..I still love my Pussycat....but Jessie was not guilty of any of the things he was accused of. Jessie would have let me keep Enzo if I asked him to but that would not have been fair of me to do and it would have been risky because Enzo could have won and changed the course of the game. I might have made F2 but Jessie wouldn't have and I don't screw my F2 partners over like that.

I have been thinking about letting Amy and Jessie go F2. That way I keep my word to both. Amy gets her F2..and Jessie gets the win he deserves.
When I ask them about this they both protest loudly but lets see what happens with the HOH. I am not going to try to win it. I don't usually sit back but I am curious to see what will happen if one of them wins. I know Jessie will take me but Amy is always changing her mind back and forth. I am certain that had Jessie won part 1 she would have been offering him a F2 too.


Jessie has a pretty good argument for winning since I almost blew our F2 by telling Enzo so he could get Amy's vote. I dont care though. Losing to Deet would be one loss I could live with.
This does not change the fact that I adore my pussycat and there is always going to be a part of me that wishes we could have gone F2. Originally Enzo was going to be my decoy, someone to help cover my true alliances but I had no idea how much I would grow to like him and it wasn't long before I was in over my head. I never wanted to hurt him or anyone else but when I make a commitment to someone I keep it, unless they screw me over somehow along the way. Jessie was a perfect partner and I could not justify doing the dirty on him. Amy on the other hand.... Well she made it easy. As much as I like her, as soon as she changed her vote, any loyalty I had to her was gone. I baled her out of a huge mess week one and feel like I carried her the whole way. It was my intention to let her and Jessie go to the end but that's off now. She may not know it but I saved her ass from going up as a target several times and even when she was up there as a pawn I had to ask people not to vote her out.

Although my original F3 plan has come to fruition there will always be a part of me that regrets that Enzo and I could not close this game together. I usually only put blind faith in people I know from other games but once I got to know Enzo I was 100% certain that I could trust him. What's more he was totally deserving of making F2 in this game. In fact he was more deserving that any of us because he made it to F4 with no F2 ally. He is amazing and although I don't like to admit it..I did consider dumping my allies and going with him. If it had been anyone but Jessie, it may have happened.